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1. |
An Introduction
04:07
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Welcome to my world ……Come and take a look inside of it
Open up your minds for a moment …this a moment you won’t like to miss
Insights a gift, you’ll find within the darkness you’re residing in
The slightest glint of lights enough to find enough to fight again
To find enough to rise again
At night, you’ll find me vibeing ‘til I find enough to write again
I try to vent my feelings, keep no secrets, put my life in text
‘Cuz if I don’t describe the things inside my head then I’d be dead
I know it’s sad to say it, But know I have to say it
Many times, I wished that I could die, So I don’t have to take this
Weight up on my shoulders way too much to bare
Not sleeping and not eating right, Lethargic, and know it takes too much to care
See life aint fair, that’s not a myth
Its full of shattered dreams and broken promises
And I’m telling you know ‘cuz you’re gonna live something way worse I can promise this
You can count on one hand all the man you will meet in your life that will now what honest is
And to be honest, I’ve been on this on my own grind
By now, I should have been accomplished in my own right
But it’s hard to get a piece out here, when you cannot find the solace in your own mind
So, I had to make this promise on my own, I
Fought for the cause walked this course in my own time
’05 Road 2 improvement, reached the conclusion
You can never finish what you’ve started if you Slow Out here
, Cuz everybody tryna fly, So if you listen to my lyrics you will find
That I can make a difference, I’m so different that I find
So, OK now, Before that I jump, I got a question
Tell me are you down for the cause
Will you really be around to support
Are you really gonna pick me from the ground if I fall
If you calling it love, I got a question
If I tell you that I’m out to record, and you ring me and I’m really not around for the call
Will you think that I’m just busy or be out of the door?
See I found out before, that no matter how deep you’re in love you can lose it
Let me tell you that the key is the trust
And no matter how you feel you just can’t get it back if you abuse it
No matter the excuses, No matter what they do if
You think that I’m telling you a lie then look into my eyes
And I can guarantee that you will see exactly what the truth is
Lord knows that I do this and I aint gotta prove shit
By myself I’ve been doing this a long time
Long nights battling my demons that harass me as I’m sleeping, it’s no wonder I can never say im
on time
They say you gotta have a strong mind, well that’s something I struggle with
You see they know about Brinkworth, But they aint got a clue what double did
They don’t know a thing about that,
What they talk in their bars, Know I been about that
What you know about keys in the freezer, a week and you need more,
it’s cold but I’ve been about that
I done walked ‘cross the coals of the fire, so close to the wire
4 years I was living like that
Shouldn’t be living like that, but the position I’m at
Right now, I could bring it right back
I’ve been so low down on my knees, in myself I couldn’t show no belief
Seen things that my eyes wish that I’d never seen
And those images so vivid in my mind I can see
That no matter how hard that I find this to be,
This the moment I’ve been waiting all this time just to see
So, I rise to my feet, Breathe…
Take strength from the times I was weak
Because its hard out here
When everybody tryna fly
So, if you listen to my lyrics you will find
That, I can make a difference, I’m so different that I find
That I’m standing on my own out here
So, close to the edge I can see my fate
I take a deep breath as I breach the tape
Lord knows this a leap that I need to take
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2. |
Down Here
04:08
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3. |
Acid Rain
04:24
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Dont talk about this dont talk about that dont
talk about change
Just talk about chicks just talk about trap just
talk about fame
You gotta tell em bout cash
Gotta sell em on that
Stop feeding their brains
Dont talk about life
Dont mention their rights
Dont talk about pain
But its all that i know man its all that i feel and
its all that I face
And if you dig a little deeper you can see they aint
living out the life that they claim
Thats the whole reason i do this
I make songs so you feel what i feel and relate
One thing that I've learnt in this music biz
Dont ever let a man dictate what you say
Let me get this out real quick before i check out my
mouth and back out of this mood this
Something thats been plaguing my mind so long that
really i dont know how to do this
We living in a world where the message in your words
can be felt 'cross the earth in a weekend
But those put upon a platform are stupid
So I'll give you that advice that is needed
First off , I'm a guide not a teacher
A normal guy not a leader
Everyone that ever said they loved me has
described me as an idiot
Mental Depressive Delusional even
And everyone of them is right to have their reasons
But they also described me as genius
With that said well lets gets to that advise
i was speaking
First off
Sever any ties with the devious
Leaches
Those never by your side when they needed
Secrets
Keep em to yourself
Aint no matter who you tell
It is almost guaranteed that they will leak it
Weakness
People often hide what they feeling deep inside but if
you look into their eyes you can see this
Anyone in life who has cheated
Lied and decieved strike a light and just leave it
Burn those bridges let the fire rage
Put yaself first if you ever gonna fly away
Yes I know it hurts but if you wanna see the light of day
Its gonna take work to emerge from the dirt
to a higher state
But who am i to say?
Years spent wasted wishing that i could change
Well you could say the waiting is over
Voice like thunder
My words be the acid rain
Dont talk about this dont talk about that dont
talk about change
Just talk about chicks just talk about trap just
talk about fame
You gotta tell em bout cash
Gotta sell em on that
Stop feeding their brains
Dont talk about life
Dont mention their rights
Dont talk about pain
But its all that i know man its all that i feel and
its all that I face
And if you dig a little deeper you can see they aint
living out the life that they claim
Thats the whole reason i do this
I make songs so you feel what i feel and relate
One thing that ive learnt in this music biz
Dont ever let a man dictate what you say
Dont ever let a man dictate to you
It dont matter what they say to you
I have met so many people out here who will say
that they got faith in you
Just so they can see what they can gain from you
Tell you that they love you but the moment that
it change for ya
You see excuses as to why they never stayed for ya
So take note of any people who remained for ya
When you get low they be the folk that will
be raising ya
Temporary people are dangerous
So dont get caught trapped in their lights
Cuz the fact is they might be attractive by sight
But the chances are they only came to pass
through your life
Still you act on advise that they had for you right
Push aside those you know who dont match
with their vibe
That's all good until it crashes n dies
And they leave and go back to their lives
And you left there thinking
How did i get to end up here and
What is it that i did to deserve this ?
Looking at mistakes that I made like
Maybe it is me who is worthless
Maybe i was wrong all along wasnt strong and those
gone saw the cracks in the surface?
Or maybr it was actually god had your back and moved
on those who lacked what you searching?
Burn those bridges let the fire rage
Forget the memories you lose more than
you ever make
Sever any ties that you've ever made
Do it Even when you know you will feel it in your
soul for forever
Stay true to yourself til your dying die
And know the secret to peace is inside our brains
You could say the waiting is over
Voice like thunder
My words are the acid rain
Dont talk about this dont talk about that dont
talk about change
Just talk about chicks just talk about trap just
talk about fame
You gotta tell em bout cash
Gotta sell em on that
Stop feeding their brains
Dont talk about life
Dont mention their rights
Dont talk about pain
But its all that i know man its all that i feel and
its all that I face
And if you dig a little deeper you can see they aint
living out the life that they claim
Thats the whole reason i do this
I make songs so you feel what i feel and relate
One thing that ive learnt in this music biz
Dont ever let a man dictate what you say
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4. |
Trauma
03:41
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I wake up everyday with a feeling
Like I should better myself
Stone cold and alone with no heating
God damn I'm depressing myself
Lead up in bed under pressure n stressed
Need to get up get dressed keep telling myself
That today is the day that I change
As I roll a phat zoot tho' they said it don't help
But you gotta have something
So I smoke in the hope I can cope as it takes
off the edge
Always stressed about something
Real talk many times stood close to the ledge
But I feel like there's gotta be something
But I don't know what it is yet
I don't know what to fix
Got so much to give
But I really don't know what it is yet
And so I plod along on my way
Head down no sense of direction
I don't watch a word that they say
More time I can clock their intentions
None of it nice bore the brunt of it twice
Lord knows I'm not looking for no gain or attention
I just wanna be at peace in my mind
Get some sleep when I try
And not cry when it's mentioned
So I've started off this new year
Headstrong new sense of direction
Forget friends don't need them
Look I forced my own intervention
Show no offence I'm alone as i vent
In my Zone on my bed building flows in my head
Thinking I have never really given close to my best
Ghost like , now I feel I've rose from the dead
I'm an artist that's always been known for my depth
If i told you everything that goes through my head
I'd be locked up stocked up a soldier or dead
Cuz well you could say that I'm different
My mood changed in an instant
Wisdom is often what we gain if we list
Noone wants to get involved until they see
you get in tho
Some will try to step on toes or see you as a
stepping stone
I wont let em wont fold under pressure Wont show no
mercy to those who wont let me grow
So
Well i better go
Better take the leap that i said I'd go
From everything they told me that i couldnt do i
done the things i shouldn't do but yet somehow i
got to where i wanna go
So
Well i guess that it means i just need to believe
Cuz the reason i breath is to seek my release through
the speakers i need to be free cuz i feel like
I wake up everyday with a chest full of pain and
a head full of trauma
But i dont wanna wake that way no more
Its bout time that i try to make more of
The chances i get to advance from this mess
From a living fulla misery , dancing with death
To a place where everyday were thankful and blessed
Cuz we just dont know how many chances are left
Im just dont know how many chances we get
Cuz it aint like I get the same chance as the rest
So its ignorant if i dont take the chances i get
I dont wanna risk the chance of regret
I see this as my chance to forget
Let go move on
I feel its time to progress
Took a whole year but now im finally set
To rise up and achieve all I said
And believe me im next to be seen as a threat
You're guaranteed to hear me skipping over
beats with the best
Im Ibrahimovic with lyrics
I'm a beast and a vet
You aint seen nothing yet
I wake up everyday with a chest full of pain and
a head full of trauma
Trauma Trauma Trauma
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5. |
Heart & Soul
03:05
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6. |
Intentions
04:02
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I dont think I'll ever be the same as them
But I don't think I'll ever be the same again
Listen
Look come and take this walk with me
Listen to this rhythm and just come and share
my thoughts with me
Often keeping to myself noone to talk with me
Roll alone a lonely soul with nothing but my
thoughts with me
Well I got a phone naturally
With 10 contacts 5 of them are family
I've cut so many people out my life the way it has to be
Cuz I don't have the strength to build the friendships
that they ask of me
I get so anxious so depressive that it fucks me up
Refuse to show my weakness so use anger
just to cover up
Try to keep my distance
Be no burden know I'm different
But they just say I'm anti social and I'm ignorant
Sometimes I think to agree tho
See many times I listen to them gritting my te
could never be the same again
Ive seen so many lie
I could never entertain a friend
Who's looked into my eyes and tried deny it when
you say to them
I think of all my secrets I would say to them
Let a couple in then I let them go away again
I think of all the things they take away with them
The little pieces of me lost
I can never be that way again
Said I can never be the same again
I won't never see those days again
I won't never feel that pain again
Embedded in my brain so them deceitful type of people
will not ever see my face again
See I said that I would wait for them
But realised it was a lie and swore that I would
never change again
For anybody other than myself
Cuz I have had it thrown back in my face when
i have helped
Remember how I used to look into her eyes
and we would melt
Convinced that we were soul mates was the
deepest ever felt
Said she wanted to have babies even talked
of wedding bells
Until she judged me on the ones who came before
me and we failed
Wonder what i would be like if my father hadn't failed
Would I have had the opportunity to be
more like myself
Could I have found that extra confidence I
needed to excell
Could have the presence of a man reduced the
pressures on myself
What if the things I taught my brother was all
crap n didn't help
I was answering his questions never quite
knowing myself
But then I think of how dad acts n how he turned
out for himself
And thank the gods he wasn't here cause I'd
have ended up in jail
I'd have punched him in his chest so hard I'd
puncture both his lungs
And show him what we'd do for the protection
of our mum
We're bound to have some
IInherited your worst traits
Heard you 60 today so I guess it's happy birthday
There I go again , flashes of my nasty side
It happens when I'm rapping get these flashes
of my past I find
That I cannot remember till the beat drops and
my pad provides
The canvas for my past for all the listeners
to cast aside
I tell them LISTEN but to hear me though
You really have to LISTEN to me clearly know
That all I've ever wanted is to help out those
who near me though
Keep them from my demons even though I longed
to keep them close
A couple Doors got opened that were dangerous
but needed so
Brave of us to jump it's a crying shame to
see them closed
I didn't ever wanna see you go
And I'll forever feel you in my soul
Guess I wrote this for the people who this
story as it's told
Was based upon the building blocks of most
of what I know
The ones who taught me what it's like to be at
home and feel alone
The ones who held on to me tight yet in time
would let me go
And i know as you listen to these lyrics in your bose
And my voice will strike a feeling that goes
deep into your soul
Know you feel it its no secret all i wanted was my
And forever I'll remember how it felt to feel you close
Yet i know how difficult you fought to keep control
Understand the weight of how i love is way
too much to hold
I knew this from the start so aint no grudges
here to hold
I just guess that this was wrote so my intentions
can be known
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7. |
So High
02:48
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I could tell from the moment we met
Before a word had been said that you came
with a story
I remember when I first saw you smile and I thought to
myself why you standing before me?
I done seen your type before
Never did they seem the type talk
Never felt so nervous right before
I even contemplated hiding behind the door
Cuz man I don't I do this stuff
And my heart still hurt from the girlfriend who left me
And at the time I never knew this But Looking back you
can see why this angel was sent me
Anyway let me rewind it back to the moment she said
she arrived and she text me
Hands up
Told myself to man up
Wrote back I am here
She replied that I best be
I was at a time in my life where my mind wasn't right I
was far from the best me
And I never I really make new friends
I don't like people and they do not accept me
Still I opened the door and the beauty I saw was insane
And when I thought that my heart that had turned cold
It was thawed by the warmth of her embrace
And I felt SO HIGH
Like this the moment I've craved
I'm talking bout a natural high this unnatural light
To someone living in darkness I've prayed
Just to feel SO HIGH
And I can't believe what I'm feeling
Im feeling everything I've felt when I'm dreaming
And Every singlething I've felt has new meaning
I feel so HIGH
But know life can change in a minute bruv
Felt so alone then was blessed with these visitors
Is it love?
So hard to tell when I'm in it but
It's way more than the physical attraction
The minute that I clapped my eyes on her miniature
Blown me away was the statement I made after hours
of us laid up smoking and chilling cuz
There was something bout the way that we talked
The way that we thought it was way too similar
Was so funny cuz I never in my lifetime Heard
someone that would sound so familiar
So there has to be a catch right
Few nights on chilling out the back vibes
Set with some music we kept with the tunes with
A little rum and coke great weed and we'd chat like
We been in this zone forever
Lost souls now close we can mould together
Conversation going deeper in the coldest weather
We kept warm from the connection that we'd
grow together but then
As I sat and I thought that this must be a dream
and to pinch me
Look across and get lost in the beauty I see and was
shocked she jumped across and she kissed me
I felt SO HIGH
Like this the moment I've craved
I'm talking bout a natural high an unnatural light
To someone living in darkness I've prayed
Just to feel SO HIGH
Now I can't believe what I'm feeling
I'm feeling everything I've felt when I'm dreaming
And even everything I've felt has new meaning
I feel so HIGH
But life can change in a minute bruv
From day one had a love that was limitless
Future so bright yet the past stood to finish us ..
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8. |
U n Me
03:38
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9. |
No More
04:28
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I can't stand up on my feet no more
Im so tired I don't sleep no more
I'm feeling like the journey I completed left
me weakened
I dont eat no more
With little fight in me I feel I cant compete no more
No more
I cannot feel at peace no more
The fires burning but I cannot take the heat no more
We don't meet We don't see
We don't speak no more
We don't love We don't trust
We won't be no more
No more
I don't want to grieve no more
Don't want the demons interrupting all my
dreams no more
Had depression but don't want to be so deep no more
Cuz after all she be the reason why my feet so sore
I've been walking through the flames 'cross the
coals of this hell on earth
So you could say that my soul will be forever burned
Never be forgiven im unable to forget the hurt
Couple years that I was convinced that we
could never work
Should I be happy I was right?
Only happy when I had her in my sights
Yet the memories so blurry I can never see the
memories I like
Lost love so those memories have died
Now I'm moving on
Cuz I don't want to hide no more
Don't want to live my life behind closed doors
Know I'm done with all the arguments
I don't wanna fight no more
I don't wanna live that life no more
No more no more
Cuz I been falling for to long said I've ignored
it and I'm wrong
I've been appalled at what's gone on so wish no more
than what's been done
I can't afford to be that one
The sort who's holding on
I put the pain onto a page and damn near
put it onto songs
And the support is always strong so why should
I be worried for
I finally have the time I never saw before
The first time in my life I've felt that I'm the
most important
All the time I've spent investing all my efforts
into others caused
Myself to be behind
I've kicked myself in the behind
For acting selfless towards the selfish frauds
I've let into my life
Instead of thinking what if I
Instead of thinking I must try
To act on my decisions cuz my destiny is mine
It's up to me and only me
The key is self belief
To reignite the hunger the desire and the need
To be the best that I can be
The person that they talk about
Long after I'm gone be in the thoughts of those
who walking out
I wish my dad could see me now
Be proud of who I am
So he can see I didn't need him , taught myself
to be a man
I pulled myself from out the darkness found myself
without his hand
I gave out beatings like those beatings that he
gave out with his hands
And after all the pain we had I never gave
up like you dad
I was the one who raised your youngest son I
done the best I can
And I'm so proud my brothers have the chance to
take from your mistakes
I love my nephews like my own you'll see how
great they will be raised
LISTEN
And all the alcohol aside
You're my family and ill love you til I die
But know the memories so blurry I can never see
the memories I like
Lost love so those memories have died
Now I'm moving on
Cuz I don't want to hide no more
Don't want to live my life behind closed doors
Know im Done with all the arguments
I don't want to fight no more
I don't wanna live that life no more
No more no more
So Lord knows where I go from here
I try prioritise the choices I have left
But they so few and far between
That view from in my dreams
Is getting further in the distance and the
voices in my head
That keep on telling me ill never be near
anything I've said
Are getting louder by the hour and the power
they posess
Can leave me powerless depressed
Embarrassed and a mess
But there is one thing that I've learnt to help me
power through this test
And that is
Everything is blessed
Every single day we get
We must do our best to step towards the goals
which we have set
Cuz when you're lonely all is left is the thoughts
within your head
And if you cannot find the peace within your
better off in death
Now I don't say that as a threat but a lesson you must take
From my verses I'm not perfect so just learn from my mistakes
But know for all the risks i take I am yet to seize my day
So it's time for me to find my feet and take my leap of faith.....
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10. |
In My Soul
04:14
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See lately I been feeling like I need to quit
Something really needs to give
Cuz trust me I don't need this shit
Everyday i fight to keep these demons deep inside
me if they see them they don't like me yet they hate
me when I'm secretive
See sometimes I don't feel the need to speak on it
Feel too weak to see you with that look like
you don't feel me
Never listen to me clearly so still blame it on
the weed and shit
Too self absorbed to notice I'm the person
that we need to fix
Instead I put my focus onto your problems
Help you go through hurdles everyday it's not
just your problems
Share the weight of everything you face
Know my support's solid
But when I look to you in search of help...you
say we've all got it
You'd think that life would more easy tho when
you're honest
Yet they don't believe me when I tell them but
applaud gossip
I could go like cole and drop a flow to ma
I need to let then know
No matter what is happening I have to have it known
No matter what the distance It's consistent
with my growth
No matter what I do know I can feel it in my soul
I feel it in my soul
I feel it in my soul
Everyone who's ever left me questioning their goals
I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to see you go
It was never meant to be
I still feel it in my soul
Cuz I don't think that I will ever fit in here
If I continue living here it's likely I could dissappear
There's nothing left to hold me down no reason
for me sticking here
But something deep inside me won't allow me
like my limits here
But there's a deeper type of purpose
Learnt to reach beneath the surface
Go deeper than the furnaces of lucifer
I'm searching trying to seek out and unearth if there's
a secret to this yearning
For some peace up on this earth cuz I don't
what happy is
But when I did I felt guilt so bad I let go of
my happiness
They quick to tell me that I'm
That I'm mad but if
I'm really that crazy why they adding to the damage if
The way I ams too much for you
I understand and let you go
But why you try to turn this into something it
was never know
That you can tell your people what you want
but they'll forget it
Me I put my truth into the songs so it's set in stone
I'll never let it go
No matter what is happening I have to have it known
No matter what the distance It's consistent
with my growth
No matter what I do know I can feel it in my soul
I said I feel it in my soul
I feel it in my soul
Everyone who's ever left me questioning their goals
I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to see you go
It was never meant to be
Though I feel you in my soul
Feel you in my soul
Feel you in my soul
Still I feel you in my soul
Feel you in my soul
Feel you in my soul
I have to let you know
No matter where I go
No matter what is happening i have to have it known
No matter what the distance it's consistent
with my growth
No matter what I do
Know i can feel it in my soul
I feel you it my soul
Feel it in my soul
Everyone who's ever left me questioning my goals
I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to see you go
Its never meant to be tho i still feel you in my soul
I feel you in my soul
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11. |
Love, Money & Drugs
04:20
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Love Money Drugs
Give it to me
Love Money Drugs
Give it to me
You've got to give me
Give me my fix
Give it to me
Love Money Drugs
You've got to give me
Give me
Give me my fix
Lately im feeling that maybe i give in n give
up the game
I Think i was gone for too long and that maybe
this isnt my lane
Musta been smoking too long lost the road i was on
and forgotten my way
What can i say
Everythings changed
Everyone looking and sounding the same
I AM ASHAMED
So many people have strayed
Didnt have patience to wait
I cant complain
I been so focussed on mastering all that i make
cuz thats what it takes
Back when i started to win as an artist you had to
write flames to be great
Now all you need is to rap at this speed and just throw
on some tune and they screaming ya name
I AM ENRAGED
When I think of all the work that i put in
All the dirt that i been in how i hurt all the feelings
Of the people who had stepped inside the
world that i live in
How i purposely swerved all the urges to fit in
Living an existance that aint worthy of living as im
trying to master all these words that ive written
FOR WHAT THOUGH
You aint even really gotta be skilled to be hot though
The bar dropped
I guess thats why they sounding all drunk though
I mean
I don't mean to come across mean
But there is sensitive and their sensisitive
I think you can guess what i mean
Aint here to hurt no feelings just to learn the reasons
why its all turned purple and fleek
I tried to ask the persons here but it seems
I cannot understand the words that they speak
but its all about
Love & Money & Drugs
I said its all about
Love & Money & Drugs
Listen
You've got to give me
Give me my fix
Give it to me
Love Money Drugs
You've got to give me
Give me my fix
This for my people who waited so long for this
projects release
Been telling them every year that im finally
ready to leap
Took me so long to get over the feelings i felt and
get back to my feet
I was so weak
Life was so bleak
Thought i controlled my depression but it
controlled me
I was lost and it cost me my seat
Took on too much lost my focus and each
Of the people i trusted n loved turned disgusting to
touch i was crushed by the weight of defeat
I have lost everything i had achieved
Pushed it aside to provide for their needs
Offered the time they requested n life they expected so
didnt expect to them leave
I AM AGGRIEVED
When i think of all the work that i put in
All the hurt i been feeling wasnt worth it
I wish I never wasted all my efforts on a person
who's willing
To do anything to sabotage a person whos winning
I was living an existence i deserved and i didnt
Ever want her to come back into the world i was living
FOR WHAT THOUGH
I told her she could never be the one that
i want though
My guard dropped but never did she get what
she wants though
I mean
I dont mean to come across mean
But i bet the whole adventure ship has now entered it
And she will bury that secret at sea
Never meant to hurt her feelings plus ive learnt the
demons cannot hurt me when they dont feed
I did my best to persevere and gained speed
Now i havent got a person here i dont need let
me get me some
Love Money & Drugs
Now let me get me some
Love Money & Drugs
Listen
You've got to give me
Give me my fix
Love Money Drugs
You've got to give me
Give me my fix
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