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Leap Of Faith (Album)

by Brinkworth aka Double E

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1.
Welcome to my world ……Come and take a look inside of it Open up your minds for a moment …this a moment you won’t like to miss Insights a gift, you’ll find within the darkness you’re residing in The slightest glint of lights enough to find enough to fight again To find enough to rise again At night, you’ll find me vibeing ‘til I find enough to write again I try to vent my feelings, keep no secrets, put my life in text ‘Cuz if I don’t describe the things inside my head then I’d be dead I know it’s sad to say it, But know I have to say it Many times, I wished that I could die, So I don’t have to take this Weight up on my shoulders way too much to bare Not sleeping and not eating right, Lethargic, and know it takes too much to care See life aint fair, that’s not a myth Its full of shattered dreams and broken promises And I’m telling you know ‘cuz you’re gonna live something way worse I can promise this You can count on one hand all the man you will meet in your life that will now what honest is And to be honest, I’ve been on this on my own grind By now, I should have been accomplished in my own right But it’s hard to get a piece out here, when you cannot find the solace in your own mind So, I had to make this promise on my own, I Fought for the cause walked this course in my own time ’05 Road 2 improvement, reached the conclusion You can never finish what you’ve started if you Slow Out here , Cuz everybody tryna fly, So if you listen to my lyrics you will find That I can make a difference, I’m so different that I find So, OK now, Before that I jump, I got a question Tell me are you down for the cause Will you really be around to support Are you really gonna pick me from the ground if I fall If you calling it love, I got a question If I tell you that I’m out to record, and you ring me and I’m really not around for the call Will you think that I’m just busy or be out of the door? See I found out before, that no matter how deep you’re in love you can lose it Let me tell you that the key is the trust And no matter how you feel you just can’t get it back if you abuse it No matter the excuses, No matter what they do if You think that I’m telling you a lie then look into my eyes And I can guarantee that you will see exactly what the truth is Lord knows that I do this and I aint gotta prove shit By myself I’ve been doing this a long time Long nights battling my demons that harass me as I’m sleeping, it’s no wonder I can never say im on time They say you gotta have a strong mind, well that’s something I struggle with You see they know about Brinkworth, But they aint got a clue what double did They don’t know a thing about that, What they talk in their bars, Know I been about that What you know about keys in the freezer, a week and you need more, it’s cold but I’ve been about that I done walked ‘cross the coals of the fire, so close to the wire 4 years I was living like that Shouldn’t be living like that, but the position I’m at Right now, I could bring it right back I’ve been so low down on my knees, in myself I couldn’t show no belief Seen things that my eyes wish that I’d never seen And those images so vivid in my mind I can see That no matter how hard that I find this to be, This the moment I’ve been waiting all this time just to see So, I rise to my feet, Breathe… Take strength from the times I was weak Because its hard out here When everybody tryna fly So, if you listen to my lyrics you will find That, I can make a difference, I’m so different that I find That I’m standing on my own out here So, close to the edge I can see my fate I take a deep breath as I breach the tape Lord knows this a leap that I need to take
2.
Down Here 04:08
3.
Acid Rain 04:24
Dont talk about this dont talk about that dont talk about change Just talk about chicks just talk about trap just talk about fame You gotta tell em bout cash Gotta sell em on that Stop feeding their brains Dont talk about life Dont mention their rights Dont talk about pain But its all that i know man its all that i feel and its all that I face And if you dig a little deeper you can see they aint living out the life that they claim Thats the whole reason i do this I make songs so you feel what i feel and relate One thing that I've learnt in this music biz Dont ever let a man dictate what you say Let me get this out real quick before i check out my mouth and back out of this mood this Something thats been plaguing my mind so long that really i dont know how to do this We living in a world where the message in your words can be felt 'cross the earth in a weekend But those put upon a platform are stupid So I'll give you that advice that is needed First off , I'm a guide not a teacher A normal guy not a leader Everyone that ever said they loved me has described me as an idiot Mental Depressive Delusional even And everyone of them is right to have their reasons But they also described me as genius With that said well lets gets to that advise i was speaking First off Sever any ties with the devious Leaches Those never by your side when they needed Secrets Keep em to yourself Aint no matter who you tell It is almost guaranteed that they will leak it Weakness People often hide what they feeling deep inside but if you look into their eyes you can see this Anyone in life who has cheated Lied and decieved strike a light and just leave it Burn those bridges let the fire rage Put yaself first if you ever gonna fly away Yes I know it hurts but if you wanna see the light of day Its gonna take work to emerge from the dirt to a higher state But who am i to say? Years spent wasted wishing that i could change Well you could say the waiting is over Voice like thunder My words be the acid rain Dont talk about this dont talk about that dont talk about change Just talk about chicks just talk about trap just talk about fame You gotta tell em bout cash Gotta sell em on that Stop feeding their brains Dont talk about life Dont mention their rights Dont talk about pain But its all that i know man its all that i feel and its all that I face And if you dig a little deeper you can see they aint living out the life that they claim Thats the whole reason i do this I make songs so you feel what i feel and relate One thing that ive learnt in this music biz Dont ever let a man dictate what you say Dont ever let a man dictate to you It dont matter what they say to you I have met so many people out here who will say that they got faith in you Just so they can see what they can gain from you Tell you that they love you but the moment that it change for ya You see excuses as to why they never stayed for ya So take note of any people who remained for ya When you get low they be the folk that will be raising ya Temporary people are dangerous So dont get caught trapped in their lights Cuz the fact is they might be attractive by sight But the chances are they only came to pass through your life Still you act on advise that they had for you right Push aside those you know who dont match with their vibe That's all good until it crashes n dies And they leave and go back to their lives And you left there thinking How did i get to end up here and What is it that i did to deserve this ? Looking at mistakes that I made like Maybe it is me who is worthless Maybe i was wrong all along wasnt strong and those gone saw the cracks in the surface? Or maybr it was actually god had your back and moved on those who lacked what you searching? Burn those bridges let the fire rage Forget the memories you lose more than you ever make Sever any ties that you've ever made Do it Even when you know you will feel it in your soul for forever Stay true to yourself til your dying die And know the secret to peace is inside our brains You could say the waiting is over Voice like thunder My words are the acid rain Dont talk about this dont talk about that dont talk about change Just talk about chicks just talk about trap just talk about fame You gotta tell em bout cash Gotta sell em on that Stop feeding their brains Dont talk about life Dont mention their rights Dont talk about pain But its all that i know man its all that i feel and its all that I face And if you dig a little deeper you can see they aint living out the life that they claim Thats the whole reason i do this I make songs so you feel what i feel and relate One thing that ive learnt in this music biz Dont ever let a man dictate what you say
4.
Trauma 03:41
I wake up everyday with a feeling Like I should better myself Stone cold and alone with no heating God damn I'm depressing myself Lead up in bed under pressure n stressed Need to get up get dressed keep telling myself That today is the day that I change As I roll a phat zoot tho' they said it don't help But you gotta have something So I smoke in the hope I can cope as it takes off the edge Always stressed about something Real talk many times stood close to the ledge But I feel like there's gotta be something But I don't know what it is yet I don't know what to fix Got so much to give But I really don't know what it is yet And so I plod along on my way Head down no sense of direction I don't watch a word that they say More time I can clock their intentions None of it nice bore the brunt of it twice Lord knows I'm not looking for no gain or attention I just wanna be at peace in my mind Get some sleep when I try And not cry when it's mentioned So I've started off this new year Headstrong new sense of direction Forget friends don't need them Look I forced my own intervention Show no offence I'm alone as i vent In my Zone on my bed building flows in my head Thinking I have never really given close to my best Ghost like , now I feel I've rose from the dead I'm an artist that's always been known for my depth If i told you everything that goes through my head I'd be locked up stocked up a soldier or dead Cuz well you could say that I'm different My mood changed in an instant Wisdom is often what we gain if we list Noone wants to get involved until they see you get in tho Some will try to step on toes or see you as a stepping stone I wont let em wont fold under pressure Wont show no mercy to those who wont let me grow So Well i better go Better take the leap that i said I'd go From everything they told me that i couldnt do i done the things i shouldn't do but yet somehow i got to where i wanna go So Well i guess that it means i just need to believe Cuz the reason i breath is to seek my release through the speakers i need to be free cuz i feel like I wake up everyday with a chest full of pain and a head full of trauma But i dont wanna wake that way no more Its bout time that i try to make more of The chances i get to advance from this mess From a living fulla misery , dancing with death To a place where everyday were thankful and blessed Cuz we just dont know how many chances are left Im just dont know how many chances we get Cuz it aint like I get the same chance as the rest So its ignorant if i dont take the chances i get I dont wanna risk the chance of regret I see this as my chance to forget Let go move on I feel its time to progress Took a whole year but now im finally set To rise up and achieve all I said And believe me im next to be seen as a threat You're guaranteed to hear me skipping over beats with the best Im Ibrahimovic with lyrics I'm a beast and a vet You aint seen nothing yet I wake up everyday with a chest full of pain and a head full of trauma Trauma Trauma Trauma
5.
Heart & Soul 03:05
6.
Intentions 04:02
I dont think I'll ever be the same as them But I don't think I'll ever be the same again Listen Look come and take this walk with me Listen to this rhythm and just come and share my thoughts with me Often keeping to myself noone to talk with me Roll alone a lonely soul with nothing but my thoughts with me Well I got a phone naturally With 10 contacts 5 of them are family I've cut so many people out my life the way it has to be Cuz I don't have the strength to build the friendships that they ask of me I get so anxious so depressive that it fucks me up Refuse to show my weakness so use anger just to cover up Try to keep my distance Be no burden know I'm different But they just say I'm anti social and I'm ignorant Sometimes I think to agree tho See many times I listen to them gritting my te could never be the same again Ive seen so many lie I could never entertain a friend Who's looked into my eyes and tried deny it when you say to them I think of all my secrets I would say to them Let a couple in then I let them go away again I think of all the things they take away with them The little pieces of me lost I can never be that way again Said I can never be the same again I won't never see those days again I won't never feel that pain again Embedded in my brain so them deceitful type of people will not ever see my face again See I said that I would wait for them But realised it was a lie and swore that I would never change again For anybody other than myself Cuz I have had it thrown back in my face when i have helped Remember how I used to look into her eyes and we would melt Convinced that we were soul mates was the deepest ever felt Said she wanted to have babies even talked of wedding bells Until she judged me on the ones who came before me and we failed Wonder what i would be like if my father hadn't failed Would I have had the opportunity to be more like myself Could I have found that extra confidence I needed to excell Could have the presence of a man reduced the pressures on myself What if the things I taught my brother was all crap n didn't help I was answering his questions never quite knowing myself But then I think of how dad acts n how he turned out for himself And thank the gods he wasn't here cause I'd have ended up in jail I'd have punched him in his chest so hard I'd puncture both his lungs And show him what we'd do for the protection of our mum We're bound to have some IInherited your worst traits Heard you 60 today so I guess it's happy birthday There I go again , flashes of my nasty side It happens when I'm rapping get these flashes of my past I find That I cannot remember till the beat drops and my pad provides The canvas for my past for all the listeners to cast aside I tell them LISTEN but to hear me though You really have to LISTEN to me clearly know That all I've ever wanted is to help out those who near me though Keep them from my demons even though I longed to keep them close A couple Doors got opened that were dangerous but needed so Brave of us to jump it's a crying shame to see them closed I didn't ever wanna see you go And I'll forever feel you in my soul Guess I wrote this for the people who this story as it's told Was based upon the building blocks of most of what I know The ones who taught me what it's like to be at home and feel alone The ones who held on to me tight yet in time would let me go And i know as you listen to these lyrics in your bose And my voice will strike a feeling that goes deep into your soul Know you feel it its no secret all i wanted was my And forever I'll remember how it felt to feel you close Yet i know how difficult you fought to keep control Understand the weight of how i love is way too much to hold I knew this from the start so aint no grudges here to hold I just guess that this was wrote so my intentions can be known
7.
So High 02:48
I could tell from the moment we met Before a word had been said that you came with a story I remember when I first saw you smile and I thought to myself why you standing before me? I done seen your type before Never did they seem the type talk Never felt so nervous right before I even contemplated hiding behind the door Cuz man I don't I do this stuff And my heart still hurt from the girlfriend who left me And at the time I never knew this But Looking back you can see why this angel was sent me Anyway let me rewind it back to the moment she said she arrived and she text me Hands up Told myself to man up Wrote back I am here She replied that I best be I was at a time in my life where my mind wasn't right I was far from the best me And I never I really make new friends I don't like people and they do not accept me Still I opened the door and the beauty I saw was insane And when I thought that my heart that had turned cold It was thawed by the warmth of her embrace And I felt SO HIGH Like this the moment I've craved I'm talking bout a natural high this unnatural light To someone living in darkness I've prayed Just to feel SO HIGH And I can't believe what I'm feeling Im feeling everything I've felt when I'm dreaming And Every singlething I've felt has new meaning I feel so HIGH But know life can change in a minute bruv Felt so alone then was blessed with these visitors Is it love? So hard to tell when I'm in it but It's way more than the physical attraction The minute that I clapped my eyes on her miniature Blown me away was the statement I made after hours of us laid up smoking and chilling cuz There was something bout the way that we talked The way that we thought it was way too similar Was so funny cuz I never in my lifetime Heard someone that would sound so familiar So there has to be a catch right Few nights on chilling out the back vibes Set with some music we kept with the tunes with A little rum and coke great weed and we'd chat like We been in this zone forever Lost souls now close we can mould together Conversation going deeper in the coldest weather We kept warm from the connection that we'd grow together but then As I sat and I thought that this must be a dream and to pinch me Look across and get lost in the beauty I see and was shocked she jumped across and she kissed me I felt SO HIGH Like this the moment I've craved I'm talking bout a natural high an unnatural light To someone living in darkness I've prayed Just to feel SO HIGH Now I can't believe what I'm feeling I'm feeling everything I've felt when I'm dreaming And even everything I've felt has new meaning I feel so HIGH But life can change in a minute bruv From day one had a love that was limitless Future so bright yet the past stood to finish us ..
8.
U n Me 03:38
9.
No More 04:28
I can't stand up on my feet no more Im so tired I don't sleep no more I'm feeling like the journey I completed left me weakened I dont eat no more With little fight in me I feel I cant compete no more No more I cannot feel at peace no more The fires burning but I cannot take the heat no more We don't meet We don't see We don't speak no more We don't love We don't trust We won't be no more No more I don't want to grieve no more Don't want the demons interrupting all my dreams no more Had depression but don't want to be so deep no more Cuz after all she be the reason why my feet so sore I've been walking through the flames 'cross the coals of this hell on earth So you could say that my soul will be forever burned Never be forgiven im unable to forget the hurt Couple years that I was convinced that we could never work Should I be happy I was right? Only happy when I had her in my sights Yet the memories so blurry I can never see the memories I like Lost love so those memories have died Now I'm moving on Cuz I don't want to hide no more Don't want to live my life behind closed doors Know I'm done with all the arguments I don't wanna fight no more I don't wanna live that life no more No more no more Cuz I been falling for to long said I've ignored it and I'm wrong I've been appalled at what's gone on so wish no more than what's been done I can't afford to be that one The sort who's holding on I put the pain onto a page and damn near put it onto songs And the support is always strong so why should I be worried for I finally have the time I never saw before The first time in my life I've felt that I'm the most important All the time I've spent investing all my efforts into others caused Myself to be behind I've kicked myself in the behind For acting selfless towards the selfish frauds I've let into my life Instead of thinking what if I Instead of thinking I must try To act on my decisions cuz my destiny is mine It's up to me and only me The key is self belief To reignite the hunger the desire and the need To be the best that I can be The person that they talk about Long after I'm gone be in the thoughts of those who walking out I wish my dad could see me now Be proud of who I am So he can see I didn't need him , taught myself to be a man I pulled myself from out the darkness found myself without his hand I gave out beatings like those beatings that he gave out with his hands And after all the pain we had I never gave up like you dad I was the one who raised your youngest son I done the best I can And I'm so proud my brothers have the chance to take from your mistakes I love my nephews like my own you'll see how great they will be raised LISTEN And all the alcohol aside You're my family and ill love you til I die But know the memories so blurry I can never see the memories I like Lost love so those memories have died Now I'm moving on Cuz I don't want to hide no more Don't want to live my life behind closed doors Know im Done with all the arguments I don't want to fight no more I don't wanna live that life no more No more no more So Lord knows where I go from here I try prioritise the choices I have left But they so few and far between That view from in my dreams Is getting further in the distance and the voices in my head That keep on telling me ill never be near anything I've said Are getting louder by the hour and the power they posess Can leave me powerless depressed Embarrassed and a mess But there is one thing that I've learnt to help me power through this test And that is Everything is blessed Every single day we get We must do our best to step towards the goals which we have set Cuz when you're lonely all is left is the thoughts within your head And if you cannot find the peace within your better off in death Now I don't say that as a threat but a lesson you must take From my verses I'm not perfect so just learn from my mistakes But know for all the risks i take I am yet to seize my day So it's time for me to find my feet and take my leap of faith.....
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In My Soul 04:14
See lately I been feeling like I need to quit Something really needs to give Cuz trust me I don't need this shit Everyday i fight to keep these demons deep inside me if they see them they don't like me yet they hate me when I'm secretive See sometimes I don't feel the need to speak on it Feel too weak to see you with that look like you don't feel me Never listen to me clearly so still blame it on the weed and shit Too self absorbed to notice I'm the person that we need to fix Instead I put my focus onto your problems Help you go through hurdles everyday it's not just your problems Share the weight of everything you face Know my support's solid But when I look to you in search of help...you say we've all got it You'd think that life would more easy tho when you're honest Yet they don't believe me when I tell them but applaud gossip I could go like cole and drop a flow to ma I need to let then know No matter what is happening I have to have it known No matter what the distance It's consistent with my growth No matter what I do know I can feel it in my soul I feel it in my soul I feel it in my soul Everyone who's ever left me questioning their goals I never meant to hurt you Never meant to see you go It was never meant to be I still feel it in my soul Cuz I don't think that I will ever fit in here If I continue living here it's likely I could dissappear There's nothing left to hold me down no reason for me sticking here But something deep inside me won't allow me like my limits here But there's a deeper type of purpose Learnt to reach beneath the surface Go deeper than the furnaces of lucifer I'm searching trying to seek out and unearth if there's a secret to this yearning For some peace up on this earth cuz I don't what happy is But when I did I felt guilt so bad I let go of my happiness They quick to tell me that I'm That I'm mad but if I'm really that crazy why they adding to the damage if The way I ams too much for you I understand and let you go But why you try to turn this into something it was never know That you can tell your people what you want but they'll forget it Me I put my truth into the songs so it's set in stone I'll never let it go No matter what is happening I have to have it known No matter what the distance It's consistent with my growth No matter what I do know I can feel it in my soul I said I feel it in my soul I feel it in my soul Everyone who's ever left me questioning their goals I never meant to hurt you Never meant to see you go It was never meant to be Though I feel you in my soul Feel you in my soul Feel you in my soul Still I feel you in my soul Feel you in my soul Feel you in my soul I have to let you know No matter where I go No matter what is happening i have to have it known No matter what the distance it's consistent with my growth No matter what I do Know i can feel it in my soul I feel you it my soul Feel it in my soul Everyone who's ever left me questioning my goals I never meant to hurt you Never meant to see you go Its never meant to be tho i still feel you in my soul I feel you in my soul
11.
Love Money Drugs Give it to me Love Money Drugs Give it to me You've got to give me Give me my fix Give it to me Love Money Drugs You've got to give me Give me Give me my fix Lately im feeling that maybe i give in n give up the game I Think i was gone for too long and that maybe this isnt my lane Musta been smoking too long lost the road i was on and forgotten my way What can i say Everythings changed Everyone looking and sounding the same I AM ASHAMED So many people have strayed Didnt have patience to wait I cant complain I been so focussed on mastering all that i make cuz thats what it takes Back when i started to win as an artist you had to write flames to be great Now all you need is to rap at this speed and just throw on some tune and they screaming ya name I AM ENRAGED When I think of all the work that i put in All the dirt that i been in how i hurt all the feelings Of the people who had stepped inside the world that i live in How i purposely swerved all the urges to fit in Living an existance that aint worthy of living as im trying to master all these words that ive written FOR WHAT THOUGH You aint even really gotta be skilled to be hot though The bar dropped I guess thats why they sounding all drunk though I mean I don't mean to come across mean But there is sensitive and their sensisitive I think you can guess what i mean Aint here to hurt no feelings just to learn the reasons why its all turned purple and fleek I tried to ask the persons here but it seems I cannot understand the words that they speak but its all about Love & Money & Drugs I said its all about Love & Money & Drugs Listen You've got to give me Give me my fix Give it to me Love Money Drugs You've got to give me Give me my fix This for my people who waited so long for this projects release Been telling them every year that im finally ready to leap Took me so long to get over the feelings i felt and get back to my feet I was so weak Life was so bleak Thought i controlled my depression but it controlled me I was lost and it cost me my seat Took on too much lost my focus and each Of the people i trusted n loved turned disgusting to touch i was crushed by the weight of defeat I have lost everything i had achieved Pushed it aside to provide for their needs Offered the time they requested n life they expected so didnt expect to them leave I AM AGGRIEVED When i think of all the work that i put in All the hurt i been feeling wasnt worth it I wish I never wasted all my efforts on a person who's willing To do anything to sabotage a person whos winning I was living an existence i deserved and i didnt Ever want her to come back into the world i was living FOR WHAT THOUGH I told her she could never be the one that i want though My guard dropped but never did she get what she wants though I mean I dont mean to come across mean But i bet the whole adventure ship has now entered it And she will bury that secret at sea Never meant to hurt her feelings plus ive learnt the demons cannot hurt me when they dont feed I did my best to persevere and gained speed Now i havent got a person here i dont need let me get me some Love Money & Drugs Now let me get me some Love Money & Drugs Listen You've got to give me Give me my fix Love Money Drugs You've got to give me Give me my fix

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released January 19, 2019

Written, Performed & Recorded By @BrinkworthMusic
All Tracks Produced By Nagra Beats except :
"An Introduction" (Andy Beatz)
"Heart & Soul" (Anabolic)
"Love , Money & Drugs" (DJ pain 1)
Mixed & Mastered by Trenton Romanini
Art Direction & Design By Brett Lindzen

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